Womans after surgery picture
Below is the final after surgery picture to reduce the excess skin after weight loss
It really hit me. I can see my body however I want to. I choose to dislike it. And I do so because after all these years, disliking the way I look has become a part of my identity. Instead of owning my body, I let the world tell me who I’m supposed to be and how I’m supposed to look. I feed off the downward spiral of shame and self-hatred, because it gives me something to strive for.
Sure, there’s an “after” picture here, and in it, I look fine (I hope). But, I wouldn’t let them take new pictures of me for this story, because I weigh about 20 pounds more than I did then. So, I feel like a hypocrite writing something that is supposed to tell others to accept themselves when I don’t accept myself. The truth is, I genuinely think everyone should accept themselves — everyone, except for me. This is the disease I am still trying to overcome.